staring, fixated and paralysed

the door, a barrier between myself

and an unknown violence beyond

can’t blink now, require data

time freezes for an eternity

despite a pounding heart

you look after them all now


creak of a house

or an unwanted step

so this is adulthood

and with it

the strains of responsibility

protecting others

although you can’t even


darkness distracts me

eyes wider

i hope to see the light again

one day

waiting for the handle to turn

am i ready for what lies beyond

i think not